Man I can relate, I'm the guy who crawled in a hole & died, married a wanna b porn star- that went bad. The girl down the street gave me some sympathy tail to straighten my head out. Been in a long term stable relationship with my ole lady now for 13 years thru thick & thin. I'm clean & sober & going to college & life does get better. Hold on, Bro & the world WILL turn.