Had an interesting experience today...
Long story short, for the last 5 years, I've been very content on playing by myself. For whatever reason, I've had bad experiences playing with others (clashing egos, opposing musical tastes, lack of preparation/commitment/time, etc).
Even with this journey of embarking in Jazz, I didn't want to play with others - despite all of your guys' recommendations to do so.
I was fully planning on learning how to walk, then play a piccolo bass for melodies, and record my own one-take jazz recordings (sequence drums with a song structure and melody in mind, record the melody and improvising from it in one-take, and recording an improvised one-take walking line underneath).
Until just an hour ago.
I was driving to an appointment, listening to Kenny Dorham's "Blue Bossa" and started humming an improvised, melodic bassline.
I was kind of blown away. I thought I was very boring musically (and maybe I am when I'm too busy trying to think of chord tones and scales, instead of letting the music flow through me - but hopefully that will change as I work on this stuff and have to think less about it). However, what I was humming was very musical and nice. I was also adapting it to the soloist's lines and even in one case, predicting what they were going to play and duplicating it with them - despite not really knowing the song.
That's when it hit me. What if they could hear me too and change their lines?
The idea of that musical conversation is really interesting to me, and something I would not be able to duplicate at home, playing by myself, recording separate lines at separate times.
My personal recordings would never be able to compete with a recording of a few specialists building off each other organically.
I will need to record some of these sessions though, because producing something tangible is the main appeal to me for recording my own stuff.
Anyways, sorry for the long post. Needless to say, I'm changing my priorities a bit...
It will be a long time before I'm capable of playing these musical ideas without getting lost in thinking of the scale and chord tones, and instead just play musically. It will take even longer to play along to the humming in my head, instead of forcing a line, but I can't wait to get there.