Along these lines are right. All your reaching out is pitiful. Drop it and move on. If she wanted you, you'd know it. She'd be communicating. If you think pestering her will flip a switch in her and make her want you, you have no clue about human behavior. Even your posts emit a pheromone of desperation. Sorry but gawd.
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Nothing more pitiful than a man who transmits to others, "I am needy." Total turn off for women. Move on son.