We...have a weird history. Especially as of late. He is a "friend" in the sense of, the kind who can be notoriously impossible to get along with, who breaks plans, who gives people the silent treatment when there is too much going on in his life, all the while claiming, "I want to see you happy."
I wanted to try and leave that part out but I guess I can't, because I feel it does make a difference with this whole story, unfortunately. To say the least, the fact that he's still hanging this in my face is kinda bittersweet and quite surreal.
So, part of my voicemail included the caveat, "If I am going to be giving you my money, I don't want any drama, bull@$, or tension between us."
Because, um, I don't. After some of what I've dealt with at various studios and in various bands?! Hell no! If I'm gonna be diving into this business via baptism by fire, I am NOT going to start out on rocky territory. If I'm gonna be giving someone my money, I want to feel comfortable and at ease with them, especially in the context of uprooting my life and starting over and moving across the country, et cetera.
You know, just like how you would feel with anybody you're paying to work with you. I have had way too many things in my life sidelined by personal drama...I am not gonna let this be one of them. If it means being a little more confrontational now to avoid the hassle later, then so be it.
I might not understand the music business, but 1) who does?! and 2) at least I can make sure that whoever I'm dealing with, has a basic level of respect for me and knows that I will not be strung along.
I guess some could argue that if it's purely business, I should just take the money and run, and deal with it as such. Which I plan to do, but I figured I might as well throw all the cards on the table first...if only so that he understands I'm serious (and don't call me Shirley!). But I think we ALL know that it's NEVER that simple.
Looks like I picked the wrong week to quit drinking!
