Wow, thanks for all the supportive comments, good (but at the same time, sad) to know I'm not alone.
It's been a tough time but I already see light at the end and although I'm not in a band currently and haven't written anything in years (got a digital 8 track Tascam 7 years ago and some recording software to replace my old tape machine and still haven't used any of it!), picking up the bass and guitar, listening to music, and reading the TB forums gives me a lot of pleasure and comfort.
So cheers to everyone! To those on the same boat, "stay strong". To those that got off that boat and moved on to better things, a warm "awesome!".
And these are the best pictures I could take with my phone and poor lighting.