I've debated about posting this internal struggle but here goes. Maybe someone will care, or have some advice. I've recently been drawn to jazz (thanks to Art Blakey, Wayne Shorter, among many others) and discovered a passion for the music, especially the role of the double bass. I've found myself listening to bassists like George Duvivier, Paul Chambers, Ron Carter, Reggie Workman, Jymie Merritt etc. I'm considering taking the plunge to jazz and double bass, but I have serious questions about my skills, age, and available time. I feel like I'd be starting way too late in life to ever get anywhere. I know more talented people have dedicated their lives to this idiom, and knowing this makes me feel like I'm starting too late and my effort would be all for nothing. Here are a few self-criticisms of my playing, and a few facts I'm considering. I'm a 38 year old father with about 30 mins to an hour to practice each weekday, with more time on the weekends. I'm concerned that this amount of available time may be too little to do it right. I feel like spending $40 an hour 2-4 times a week for lessons maybe wasteful given I should be focusing on my children (would this be $$$ better spent on a 529 plan for them?) I have never had a structured practice regimen. I have trouble counting and currently playing in odd time signatures even though I'm starting to work through it. I've relied mostly on patterns rather than being able to name the notes as I play. I'm now just starting to attempt to name notes as I play through them. I can play blues type walking lines easily but unable at the present time to play good sounding jazz walking lines that swing and used chromatics effectively. I'm currently unable to get away from the habit of playing the root on the one. I have trouble using open strings due to reliance on patterns. Overall, I'm an average, intermediate, electric rock bassist. I do not sight read. I started one time, but put it down. I'm familiar with harmonization of the major scale, and modal patterns. I know the patterns of maj7, min7, and dom7 arpeggios. I'm starting to learn to practice ii V I patterns and connect the chromatically. In all, I almost feel like I'd make a better jazz listener and appreciator than a player, but there's something inside me that passionately wants this, despite my current limitations. I realize others cannot make this decision, or put in the time needed for me. I'm torn. There's something inside that won't allow me to stop thinking about jazz and playing it. Also, there's seeds of doubt telling me that I'm being delusional and dishonest with myself, and that I should just listen. Thanks for listening.