Weird. Exactly the same with me. Done alot of beats....some are ok....but I'm sooooo not a boom bap dude like Dilla or Premo.I've been coming to the realization that my journey into ambient music has been about my personal rejection of "Beat" based music. I enjoy listening to beats but have been terrible at creating ones I'm satisfied with. I realize that even as a bass player, I have a poor concept of what the grammar of "drums" is, and I even have a weakness mimicking music I enjoy listening to.
The creation of patterns, rhythmic hooks, and song structure seems less of a focal point in the ambient music I aim to compose. It's much more about the space and texture and interplay of the sounds. People I've shared my work with have commented on the textures, but never once brought up anything beat-related.
I was listening to a bunch of 4/4 drum loops the other day and it all came clearer to me. I like that stuff, but I'll never produce a vocabulary of beats or drum loops I feel comfortable creating with. I'll always want someone else to write and arrange the drums. However, I feel great satisfaction in creating complete ambient pieces that have my voice.
I can post a beat or 2 out I've made.
I use my sampling as textures...noises...drones....weirdo stuff...guess cuz I suck at "normal" programming and beat and samples....
