Yeah, after reading your post again... I'm sure you need to be a grasshopper to a Sensei somewhere...
Because...
I suspect you're going to have a sore butt when another bassist, with a similar view that you're (possibly

)
displaying, blows you off the stage with taste, tone, AND technique.

We've all been there, but most of you young's' these days really have fragile musical demeanors, and most old farts like me won't risk advice falling on deaf ears. It's hard advising a self declared genius, I mean... Who am I anyways?

especially if you don't hear watcha wanna hear....
Don't worry about silly crap like am I any good? Do you enjoy it? As someone that's done a fair amount, I've learned more from casual listeners, recordings, and peers when I just concentrate on the blessing of being able to play...
BUT!!!!!
When COVID is over, and jam sessions are going again... Go to the largest city near you, find an appropriate jam session for your genre, and have a play...
But, make sure you STAY and watch the other players when you're finished. Don't run out the club...
Then tell us how ya feel bruh... that's your litmus test fo sho' ...
Good Luck!