I'm in a house situation in a little rustic campground/hangout waaay out in the sticks. It's an easy job with low expectations, perfect for getting back into a groove after more than 10 years of playing maybe 3 times a year. This is our second weekend open and last weekend was really tight and sounded good from the stage and from the crowd reaction, was also coming across well to them.
Last night however, not so much. At least for me. It was like my timing was off by half a tic and I could not get it back all night, and this is easy stuff even for someone of my hack standing. The 3 guys up front never seemed to notice, but I kept getting questioning looks from the drummer when I'd be late on a stop or early jumping in, or...you get the picture. It was like my internal clock was wonky and to be honest, it's the first time I've ever had this happen. I've birthed my share of clams trying to stretch in rehearsal, or trying to follow a song for the first time when the only clue I have is what I can hear as it's being played, but if I've had some time to learn stuff I generally get it nailed down pretty tight. Last night was an exception that more than proved that rule, and it bothered me to no end.
I've been playing in group situations for a looong time and like I said, this was a first for me. I've had nights where I hit a rough patch but it usually only lasts a tune or two, or no longer than to the end of that set, but last night it was something I couldn't shake no matter how hard I wanted to. I'm wondering if it's age related (I'm old as dirt), or if I let a bad start get under my skin and just never got it out, or what.
We go again tonight so I'll know in a short while if it's a fluke or something more.
While opinions or like experiences are (as usual) welcome, writing it out is more to make it real to me than anything else.
Thanks for providing a place to let me vent.