Not slagging on you, @Jinbu. Your band mates, maybe.
I remember getting together with a few players and trying to pull a band together here in South Florida. They added a pretty fair lead guitarist (who made the rhythm guitarist leave shortly afterwards), who had personality quirks that caused havoc. He was afraid to play out, worrying that “other guitar players will be there, and they’ll tell us we suck”. At the time, I offered to record a demo CD in my home studio; he came in, we set up his rig, mic‘s up his amp, and got what he and I agreed was a good recorded sound. He then tried to record his part as I had done and the drummer had done, using headphones (Sony 7506’s) from my SONAR DAW. He got “red light fever” badly. Couldn’t play in time to either the recoded tracks, a click track, or both. He claimed he wasn’t able to hear himself in time; I said, “The drummer and I did. There is only 5 ms of latency in the system. If you record your part, I can time-shift it to match, if needed.”
He said, “5 ms??? DON’T YOU CARE ABOUT QUALITY???”
I said, “Pack up your stuff and get out of my house. NOW.” Haven’t seen him or heard him play with anyone since.
I’ve had a number of offers to play with folks since then. Some have worked out, some have not. But it’s usually been civil. Some have worked out very well. Others were, “Thanks for the opportunity, but I think there’s a better fit out there for you.”
@Jinbu, there may be better and less stressful opportunities out there for you. I hope so.