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Your Last Gig

i haven't played a gig in 20 years, but i play bass almost every day.

when physical issues didn't allow me to play any of my basses, i got smaller basses. i currently own a 24.75" scale bass for emergencies. when, briefly, i couldn't play bass - not even a ubass - i played keyboard. but i was thrilled to be able to play the bass as soon as some recovery happened.
 
I quit the bidness in 1981 after burning out on the road. It lasted maybe 6 months and I started playing pickup gigs just to keep my chops up. Hooked again. And here I am, 40 years later, playing 2 to six gigs a month in a couple of central Texas bands. I stay out of Austin to avoid playing cheap or even free. Too many whores in that market.

And now, at 68, my bucket list is short. I just want my final breath to be drawn on the bandstand of a smoke filled honkytonk at 2:01a.m. on a Sunday morning as the bar is closing.

Nobody likes a quitter!
 
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I hear you and I hope you're able to play as much as you're willing and able.

I'm only 33 but this time last year I was about an inch from death. I had to have 5 blood transfusions to keep me alive due to severe internal bleeding.

When I was discharged from the hospital it was a big deal to walk down the hall to the bathroom.

Every day I got stronger and stronger until one day I was able to play bass for about 15 minutes. It felt like such a huge accomplishment!

I'm mostly better now but COVID and my brush with death really made me focus on what's important. Music makes me happy and provides much needed catharsis. I don't know if I'll always be gigging (although I intend to!) But I know that music brings me too much joy to ever stop doing it forever.
 
I quit the bidness in 1981 after burning out on the road. It lasted maybe 6 months and I started playing pickup gigs just to keep my chops up. Hooked again. And here I am, 40 years later, playing 2 to six gigs a month in a couple of central Texas bands. I stay out of Austin to avoid playing cheap or even free. Too many whores in that market.

And now, at 68, my bucket list is short. I just want my final breath to be drawn on the bandstand of a smoke filled honkytonk at 2:01a.m. on a Sunday morning as the bar is closing.

Nobody likes a quitter!
Hey, Thumper, I hope I’m not at the bar when you take that last breath. But I get it. And if I am I’ll make sure nobody makes off with your gear and maybe pour out a little bourbon.
 
This is the Phantom of my future (and past and present).
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Hey, Thumper, I hope I’m not at the bar when you take that last breath. But I get it. And if I am I’ll make sure nobody makes off with your gear and maybe pour out a little bourbon.
Killing Floor, If you happen to be there, you may keep the G-K in exchange for getting my Muckelroys back to my widow. Drink a shot for me if you can get the bartender to pour one after hours.
 
So if it's about losing the ability to play, yes I think about it. Right now, at 67 with Diabetes, Arthritis, neuropathy, memory loss I just keep going with lighter equipment and a musical workout every other day at minimum. I'm in a band that plays a lot so it keeps my going. But I know my time is coming and it will have to be ok.
 
Back in 2020 I had that realization about a month before Covid shut down gigs and “normal” life. I had some tests run from my doctor and got a voicemail on the way to a Friday show from the triage nurse that was basically “you have _____, give us a call with any questions, have a good weekend”. Of course they were closed by the time soundcheck was over, so I got to spend that entire night and weekend of shows playing and thinking “this may be the end for me”. Strangely enough a drummer buddy came out to hang that night, I found out later he had the same issue I was just diagnosed with and had beaten it, so there was some hope.

2022 has been a pretty hard year mentally and emotionally for me and since everything that happened from 2020 forward had shaken things up I definitely strive to play every show like it’s my last, because it very much could be. Some days are easier than other but I’m very grateful for the times I’ve had onstage and the musician friends I’ve been blessed to play with.

For what it’s worth, I’ve seen some amazing stuff happen for people and their health when they’re motivated, have friends and family in their corner and something to cling to mentally/emotionally/spiritually. I hope you’ll have a clear path forward and loved ones close to you to keep you motivated as you navigate whatever it is you’re facing!!
 
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I know I'll stop when I can no longer play bass (physical issues), when we don't get bookings anymore or when it's no longer important to me. I'm 63 and still love playing with my band 2-4 times per month. I've just been diagnosed with a form of rheumatoid arthritis and am on meds...I still play every day, though!
 
I don't want to suggest I have any idea what it's like to be in the OP's shoes, physically or emotionally. Maybe I have a little insight, in that my father was a professional musician almost his whole life, playing saxophone and clarinet, until he had a stroke that affected his throat and he couldn't do it any more, and I saw what it did to him. But everyone's different, and how people are affected and how they react will be different.

All I can say is that for me, I'm already on a downhill path. I've had a couple of reasonably serious injuries and playing with a bass slung over my shoulder is harder than it used to be. But my hands still work, so for now I can still play, and as long as my hands keep working I'll keep playing. Maybe my neck and shoulders will get bad enough that I'll give up the bar gigs and do something low key where it's more acceptable to sit down. Or maybe I'll stay home and noodle in my spare room, record more, try writing more. But music keeps me centered, lifts me when I'm depressed, calms me when I'm worked up, so I'll keep going as long as I can. And when I can't, I guess I'll listen more, expand my musical horizons.

And for what it's worth, when my dad couldn't play any more, he turned to teaching music to school children. He loved it. Gave all his stuff away to kids who couldn't afford their own instruments. Did that for another five years.
 
Have you ever contemplated that someday you will put your bass down and never pick it up again? That you will never play another note? Is that a phantom of the grey future that you have been unwilling gaze directly at?

I have found my vision fixed on that specter as of late. How do you approach it with grace and courage?
Yes, I have already begun taking action, too.Playing gigs on bass has become less satisfying. I've simply done so many, and the types of gigs (jazz) I'd really like to do I am less qualified than I need to be to compete for them.
So I took up classical guitar about 10 months ago. I may wind up playing solo guitar gigs (it's a goal), but if I never do, playing solo guitar pieces is much, much more satisfying than practicing bass rn.
 
I have viewed myself as a musician for over 30 years now. How do you deal with the loss of identity? It isn't that identifying as a musician makes me special, gives me super powers, or a visible aura - however, it has always given me an internal sense of identity. A sense of belonging even - a tribe that I claim membership in.
You will remain a member of the tribe. You just won’t be able to play anymore. That doesn’t mean you’re not a musician.
 
Have you ever contemplated that someday you will put your bass down and never pick it up again? That you will never play another note? Is that a phantom of the grey future that you have been unwilling gaze directly at?

I have found my vision fixed on that specter as of late. How do you approach it with grace and courage?
I suspect that it will pass and I won't realize it until some weeks/months after it happens. The Pandemic has caused me to evaluate how resistant I am to letting things go.

John