Disclaimer: I know we're not allowed to talk religion on these boards, but the venue in question is a church. And it's a regular gig. I'll do my best not to cross that line. I grew up in church. It's part of the fabric of who I am, whether I like it or not. I've almost always volunteered to 'serve' in music wherever I've attended. Most recently, I've been playing bass (& sometimes lead guitar) at a the 'big church' (roughly 1500-2000 ppl) in our small(ish) town. Been doing that a few times a month for the past 5 years. I'm surrounded by a good group of musicians. No attitudes. Good vibe. Okay... maybe the keyboard player noodles instead of knowing his part, but that's to be expected with gospel keyboard players, right? Over the years, I have found my beliefs to drift away from those of the church. While Evangelical churches have become more and more corporate and political, I have become less so. But I've kept playing, telling myself that I do it because of the relationships I have with my fellow bandmates and a few other folks at the church. And I've liked the idea of helping out, since this church does a lot for the community. Recently, the church band has been transitioning to click tracks, Ableton...etc, along with an upscale video/audio suite. I've started noticing some new musicians that I don't know or have that relationship with. I've also started noticing that a lot of the older players are playing less and less. Without those guys, I become one of the older guys on stage by a decade or more. Granted I'm young at heart (immature? lol) and stuff like that doesn't bother me. Still, it's different than it used to be. I still enjoy playing. But the new, enhanced focus on the stage production is a little off-putting. It feels like the focus is on the wrong thing. The influx of what I see as restrictive changes, combined with my growing and changing belief system is making me wonder if it's worth showing up anymore. Maybe it's better to walk away, for my own well-being. Or maybe it's good for me to continue to help out? I've discussed this with the lead pastor. I've also talked with the worship pastor (I think he gets it). But I'm not sure I'm getting unbiased advice from either of them. I mean, they have to be there, since their paycheck is tied to the success of the church, right? Without getting into a religious discussion, I'm curious if anyone else here has had a similar experience? Maybe it wasn't a church, but something similar? What did you do? If not, what would you do?