Holding good thoughts for you. Hope things level out. It's been my experience that as you age, you are swamped more and more by avalanches of stress and bullchit. It shouldn't be that way.
Sometimes I feel like the universe is pointing its finger at me and saying "Ah...there's a guy trying for little stabs at happiness even though he's already got more than he can handle on his plate. Time to throw him a few dozen more curveballs to juggle and deal with."
The only thing that gets me through is my family, being able to blow off steam now and then by playing, hanging out here and trying to remember that most of the negative/overwhelming stuff IS just BS that will (hopefully) blow over or not have long-term effects.
There are seriously times when I just want to get rid of everything and go live in a shack and get into subsistence farming. Drop out entirely.