So, the pick itself, was not the cause of my distress/skepticism about this band. I don't think you guys get that.
The cause of said distress, was the implication that IN AN UNPAID PROJECT WHERE I HAVE NO CREATIVE INPUT, at a point in time when I was NOT EVEN IN THE BAND YET (again, unbeknownst to me: doesn't "We'd like to work with you" sound like "you're in the band"? Am I effing crazy??)....
All these factors, and the guitarist/producer was passive-aggressively "suggesting" I play EVERY SINGLE SONG. ALL THE SONGS! with a pick. Thereby overhauling my entire technique and dictating it to a degree which-in my opinion AND experience- generally merits either pay, or creative involvement.
As soon as I realized how uneasy it made me to be coerced into something I would've rather arrived at on my own instead of under the guise of it being a very rigid "learning experience"....
I let my thoughts be known by saying that I was willing to match the tone of the album via pick, but that was as far as I'd go unless *I* felt that MY playing called for a pick or a, like, potato chip, Dremel, piece of cheese, etc.
Needless to say I am not in the band.
I really don't think I'm crazy or out of line for not wanting other people to tell me what to play and how to play it, without paying me for it. I KNOW I'm not, because every single one of my paid musician friends, has said the same thing. I really don't think I'm wrong for seeing this "learning experience" as something which HINDERED personal growth due to my being tethered to one exact sound, style, and tone...note for note. Again, IF I WERE GETTING PAID I WOULD HAVE NO PROBLEM WITH THIS.
But I'm not. So with all due respect to "learning" by stressing myself out and catering to someone else's wet dream of a band with absolutely no room for contribution or compromise? They can &@)$ off. They can seriously $&@" off because I have gone, ONCE AGAIN...ALWAYS...120% out of my way to make this work.
So whatever. I don't care anymore. I just can't figure out who they thought they'd get, with demands like that.
Once again, here I am. It's cool...I get the message now. I just dropped 100 bucks on a setup for a bass that I'm probably gonna be sitting in my room playing, for a long long time. And I don't expect anybody here to support my philosophy on this or to encourage me to dust myself off because obviously something is wrong with me and honestly? It makes me want to totally give up on bass because I KNOW I would never be happy just playing by myself or "jamming"...so my pain comes from wanting something more, something so goddamn easy and simple....and never feeling so adrift about anything before in my life.
Yeah. So that's how that went. If you really want to talk to me, it's in my profile. Just spare me the macho "oh you should've just" NOPE. I was not comfortable and it hit me fast and once I realized that, to hell with them. So like...don't even. Because this just happened, my job sucks, my bird died today, and I can't.