I feel you, @lordradish and @cosmicevan
Here's my self-crit.
2020 was a so-so year for GAS and for music. Obviously, Covid--Quebec shut down literally the day that my instrumental band was set to go into the studio to record a new record. We were tight and had been working on the songs for like a year, and we were full of great ideas and now...it'll be awhile, and the studio we were going to go to is no more.
Gearwise, I got some great stuff that I love, like the Blooper, a few duds, and a very expensive touch guitar instrument that is an absolute joy to play but much heavier than I was promised (he promised "light weight" and I got 10#, which he says isn't 10#), and which may or may not be a keeper for that reason. But it sounds great and I love the neck and I can play it sitting down no problem, and it's beautiful to look at.
I also got really good and fast at editing, mixing, and processing in Logic, making podcasts for my students twice a week (and every week I made a new synth or sampler patch to run the course's theme music through, which was a Numerology sequence). So in the end I guess I "finished" 14 1-minute tracks, they're just all the same "song." My wife and I have also written 5 songs that we may record over spring break. Or if we are high enough priority in the Quebec vaccine plan, we might even just wait and record in a studio--they will certainly want the business.
The problem was that I pretty much bought whatever I wanted this year, but by mid fall early November), I didn't have enough time to experiment with gear and do the playing I wanted. So my playing areas got cluttered with unfinished experiments, which meant they got in the way of playing when I had half an hour to play. Fatigue doesn't help either since by November I was just melting into the couch in the evenings after a 10 hour day of work. The reverb journey earlier this year was worth it, but I probably should have quit while I was ahead.
I'm not a neat freak by any means, but when I'm exhausted, clutter is really, really bad for my creativity. It's like 3D menu diving.
Still, if I look back, I did solve some problems I'd had in the past. I've got a little mic hanging over my guitar speaker which can go right into my Sony PCM-D50 to capture improvisations. I've got a matrix mixer so I can change the order of effects on the fly, and I finally have a looper I really like. After a 6-year journey with modular I also have a clear sense of what I like and don't like, though I will ultimately have to decide if I want to stick with Numerology and the computer for step sequencing (which I know really well and love but time away from the computer is a good thing) or really commit to the Vector sequencer, which I love in theory but am not finding as instantly gratifying.
I've also gotten good and fast at synth programming and patching, assuming the interface isn't stupid. My wife and I have been using the drone commander at practice, but it's a PITA to tune in-between songs. I just borrowed the DSI Mopho Keys which is on permanent loan to the keyboardist in one of my bands (and lives in the space) and within 5 minutes, had a credible drone commander patch up and running. Couldn't do that when I bought it back in 2010.
So for 2021, my goal is pret-a-cuisiner at all times. There will be a little table with effects by my amp, and the modular will be converted to a semi-modular with a more or less permanent patch that I won't undo unless I have time to re-do it. If I want to mess around with something, fine, but not in my musical workspace.
For the touch instrument, I also did what I should have done in the first place and went to a local luthier to have him build me what I want. That'll be a few more months before it's done, but he's really into it as a creative project and a new challenge, and gets what I want to do (and listens to me), I appreciate that.